I had been researching and reading and looking for a pre-school for him and I'll admit that I didn't have all the information I needed in the beginning and found it frustrating and confusing trying to sort our public pre-school that is Govt funded v's private pre-schools that aren't... zones and areas and all manner of obstacles here in Canberra.
I think that at one stage earlier this year, I had given up trying to sort it out but I think it was a little bit of being overwhelmed and more about being sad that my little guy was growing up all too quickly!
Especially when we are in the car and he asks me "Mummy I go to big school soon don't I" oh my goodness..... tears and everything from Mummy!
Sometimes I think that I get so upset because I suffer from the same thing that most working mums do..... GUILT and feel that I've not spent enough time with E and the more I try and fix it the worse it gets!
Realistic or not it's the way it makes you feel.
Through the haze of tears and beating myself up that I was a bad mummy - We did find a great pre-school for E and he starts next year and he is really excited. He can't wait to meet his new friends and is looking forward to doing music and all matter of things.... and that just brings a smile to my face and let's me know that I'm not doing such a bad job after all.